Muddled Mind

From some good time my mind is not following my heart and seems like I'm saturated with the journey of work. The haste of thoughts are moving badly within me. Mind's muddled up and I don't see any other options as of now (though choice remains with me.) Every night is haunted by the thought that I've to be in office the next morning and same agitation prevails from waking me up. When I look at my retired dad, I'm always surprised and shocked to know how did he managed to work for 35 long years. It's only 7 years for me and I feel I can't take anymore of this crap. He's full of energy, enthusiasm and very much active for the rest of the day just like any other kid. What I feel is we don't have that much patience and vigor what they have.

Don't know what's wrong with me in working or may be I need a good long break for a while. I'm glad my life isn't perfect, this reminds me I'm real, I'm human like others, I'm me......

Frozen Mind

It has never been so easy to keep the mind stable, that steady head over the shoulders. It keeps on flowing with infinite thoughts, thoughts that are born and die at the same time. Thoughts that keeps you awake, makes you gleeful and gloomy, thoughts that takes you to the space of no man's land, of unheard and unthoughtful. But still, mind triggers and keeps you thinking of the things that are unrelated and trivial and still you matter over mind. Sometimes we don't mind and yet matter a lot with the hallucinating thoughts.

The time keeps treading and so does the wavering thoughts of the sojourn. Would it ever shutdown the senses of the stupor before marking the almost surreal emptiness.

Want to have that zero-state-frozen-mind, with the myriad moments and the flowing time.